Black Titanium

MiMi Beltzak
Number 49
19031989
Floorball

Audi Q7black
Audi TT RS
Adidas Jerseys
Adidas Watch
Antarctica

Dysfunctional Family
Pemarah Lover(Syg)
Hellmate(Ella Kai)
Lil Orange(khalilah)
Classic(Amalina)
Francine(Franny)
Rabiatul(Classic Minah)
Yatassha(Butterfly)
Team Nyp Floorball

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Dementor's Life.

Thursday, October 30, 2008.

PROGRESS!!!

More focus on school , more rest at home and spending time with frens
super the ONE WORD frens) haha.... They ROCKS man.. we can discuss any topic and make super duuuuurty jokes..
I fell more relax and free nowadays to the extend that i keep making stupid songs. haha.. any word that i feel nice or unique... i will start making song with it!!
i just release my Indian song.. injunction of DEEPAVALI!! haha.. ( ama is my back-up singer)
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Today was one of the nicest day since school reopen. We had breakfast @ COFFEE BEAN with
classic, Mopok, Negaraku and SYG!!! ( has been a long time since i met syg)..
I tell u COFFEE BEAN serve
OSTRICH Egg in their Egg Sandwich Club.. the egg is ssssuuuupppperrrr BIGG!!
Melting cheesse form the stove!! SUPERB!!
The black coofffeee so the MENGANCAM!!
As u can tell im sooooo STATISFIED with my food except for the SALAD. hahha..
Breakfast was awesome.. the stories we shared was super hilarious.. ahhhh...
I saw 2 hotties today.. HAPPY!!
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Yesterday, spent the day with Ateeq, Sha & Bacin to bugis.
I bought few things which im so satisfied.. but kena scolding by Bacin ah.. coz the clothes i buy all so the guy guy type and its either BLACK OR WHITE!!..hahha.
Bacin.. please ahh.. u don aspect me wearing the skinny, leggings, dress.. blablabla.. i rather be mummy-fied. hahha..u can wear ah... u look cute and nice in all that...
Then we went to NATIONAL LIBRARY!!! so fun.. enter the lib.. all go different ways..
MALAY NOVEL ( BACIN)
ROMANCE ( ATEEQ)
THRILLER ( MiMi)
DUSTBIN ( SHA) ( she keep talking to guy.. so we throw her out of the lib)
C.S.U investigation Novel is gg to be my bible for these few days.. haha!!
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ANW.. countries to explore
1. Antarctica
2. Egypt
only 2 ah for now.. must see budget!!
STUPIDEST PIC EVER!!
New member: Her name is SHARILLINA!!
haha.. ( shane will kill me)

Spastic SHARILLINA!!
ABUSE!! Shane vandalised my hand coz i couldnt stop shaking my leg!!
It looks like ATEEQ corek her NOSE!!!
Haha!!

Snapped when everybody was gossiping at the back..
but we 3 just chill!!
im trying to put it together
and be rationale
re-evaluate it millions of time
U can come from
any DIRECTION
in any FORM
BUT u can never
break me
trick me
fool me
just want u to know i will never leave u
End Note
i drive my own car..
BlackSpider

10:47 PM.

Monday, October 27, 2008.

POL -ITE CHAMPS
WE WON,
3 conservatives years!

NYP 2 - 0 RP
NYP 4 - 1 NP
NYP 3 - 0 TP
NYP 10 - 1 SP
NYP 4 - 4 ITE

i cant express how happy i am.
every moment of the Last game vs ITE are still fresh in my head.
To see their ultimate stress face before the game TILL happy, joyful faces in every of thier faces @ the end of the game
That was the wonderful wonderful gift of the Night
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WELL DONE!!
PROUD OF MY TEAM

Sya,Fariza,Francine,Pat,Ramri,Wileen,Atiqa,Izie,Haida,Xinni,
ShuXin,Joan,Kelly,Jinat,Clarisse,Jut,Puspa,Tiffanie,Ravyna,HuiAn,

`Our Motto
Defend like Soldiers Attack like Cannon Ball!!

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im able to stand strong and be proud holding that trohpy all because of
TEAM NYP FLOORBALL

I miss my Dysfunctional Family
Simpang soon pleasepleaseplease!!
from puasa sia!!
i free u
But did i free myself?
sometime i wanna curse and swear
But where those it bring me to?
My heart doesnt infarct from loving u
But have u stop loving urself?
BlackSpider

3:04 PM.

Monday, October 20, 2008.

Welcome back Spideyyy!!

A week w/o blogging, busy with SCHOOL!!
Now im at E plaza with the NgongNgongzz
i donno why they call it e -plaza, its not a plaza lah, just few rooms full with computer.. PLAZA??!!
Our next lesson is at 2pm. Lecture Adult Nursing... zongzong
Alot of things happen last few hours,
Chan Lee Yong on Mc.. practice lesson was a bit slack.. played around with Needles, water, sponge. INJECTION!! i wish i can inject somebody.. haha
Lunch was nice... always nice...

Just something funny happen
MIMI PEKAK!!!
Classic Ama: MiMi whats your height?
MiMi : Sihat Walafiat!! ( im well indeed)
Classic Ama: Huh?? i asked whats your height? Not Mimi Sihat?? ( Are you well)
MiMi: : haha!! i tot u ask me if im Sihat!!! ( if im WELL)
It sounds the same ah deyy.. so dont blame me ah!!
HEIGHT>> SIHAT!!

Btw, after did some finance.. wwooo like got alot of money ah do finance..
yaya,, did some calculation... i realise that i have only 90bucks to spent on things..
Walau ehh i dono where my money gone too. i forgot what i have bought.. i need money for my bag and shoe..

Plan A) Anyone have a plan on which BANK that we wanna rob...
Call me ya?
WHEN?
WHERE?
TIME??
i will be down for sure!!!

Plan B) Or should i pyscho baba to give someme money?
Or should i psycho mama
Or should i psycho BOTH to give some money?
I think Both is better!!
haha...

PLAN B sound NICEE!!

End note:
if u love somebody set them FREE
if they come again set them on FIRE!!
Funny ah.. i love SUSU shirt!!

Blackspider

1:20 PM.

Sunday, October 12, 2008.

dragged myslef out of the bed today..
My whole body wasnt in the mood to do anything...
But then i have training.. so force myself out..
Training was okey lah.. the girls also seem tired... maybe because they have to wake up early in the morning.. haha.. train yourself now.. next week school starting deyyy..

Went makan.. and nonsense around
Today i just got to know that eating potatoes will make u sleepy.. true or not i donno.. but i think the theory is true.. Coz francine was down after eating KFC.. with fries in the meal.. haha!!
Went to Chek Iman's house and Chek Minah house...
Slack and slept..was to tired to entertain all the makciksssss...
But Fadly was there.. my smart handsome boy!! today he malu malu kucing.. tapi kadang2 tak tahu malu jugak..
Today he sepak my face like 7 times.. haha.. deserve it lah coz i bully him.. haha..
And the Sister , Fadhilah is like Jantan sia ( like me ah) lanyak me, wrestle, penat siak layan!!
haha.. they are super cute kids.. but sometime tired ah to layan..

Tomorrow School!!
Tomorrow Game!!

Cute faces>>>

My smart Handsome Boy in Baju kurung!!
CAK!!
the face slapper!!
She proves the Theory is true!!
Cute ah My Blind Boy!!
The answer is out
the whole picture has been painted
nice outcome ?
Not sure..
But the main thing is the result is out
Hold u tight,
make my own feelings harden
i free u
i free myself.
End Word
jgn later the my rambut koyak!!
What did u say MaMa???
BlackSpider

12:44 AM.

Saturday, October 11, 2008.

Met some dysfunctional faces and some hantu raya..
Actual plan was to go simpang makan and slack.. but due to ultimate laziness of Lil.. we end up tampines food culture.
Makan slack and crapped
Ateeq the worst among alll.. Always kutuk!!
Kutuk Ow Yong >>Kutuk Adidas>>Kutuk Audi
But then she still have the cheek to say .. She always give me kasih sayang ( love) to me.. Loser!!
We plan to stay together.. landed property.. she planned that i do all the house work and she will be my supervisor taking of me!! u think i wat your INDON MAID!! still can say give me kasih sayang.. tsktsk.. one word for u TEEQ!!
i cant never get bored gg out with this hantu raya..nonstop crap.. she can kutuk you and theres no expression in her face.. Macam tak bersalah gitu!!
Another hantu raya.. Sha.. she also another PITA.. she will nag and nag.. eeeeeeeeeeeee
Enough of layaning her last night.. but i made her fat last night hahaha..
Tomorrow training...

i prefer gg training then go raya ehh, Mama!!

Dysfunctional faces

ateeq studying!! omg!!

hantu raya no 1

Hantu raya no 2

The family Tree

My Hot Mia-s

I miss ngongngongs
Imiss soya bean
Girls sorry i couldn't raya -ing with u all coz i have training so sorry... but u can come my house anytime u want okey.. chachatz

i left u hanging
I'm sorry
i cant make the decision now
please standby me
just pure u
just pure me
just pure soul
and i will hold u tight

Blackspider

12:00 AM.

Thursday, October 09, 2008.

The Day
The Game
The Team
10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1>>>>>> peeeeeeeettttt
WE WON!!!
We WON!!
2-0
TEAM NYP attacked like cannon ball aganist RP.
Both Girls and Guys game
Guys its okey ah.. they did their best.. more games coming.. Fight harder!!
its nice to see coach smile when we play well and do as what she says.. she was damn stress and confuse, but she did good,good plan, good decision!! Thanks too coach also!!haha..See the girls play.. run.. dribble.. defend.. then see fariza dive.. slide... heading.. wahh... my adrenaline shoot up. Excited to play.. but didnt got the chance.. sad abit ah.. didnt got the chance to play. I have been wanting to fight RP..Not my luck ah. haha..But after thinking thru it..

(Self reflection)
Why the Hell Am I Sad? I shouldnt be SAD! ( stupid dumb dumb )
Its not about me playing, or whoever playing
Its about the TEAM
Its about having the drive to play
Its about believing in every mates
And the result is> WE WON as a team!!
The Girls played well
Fariza was SUPERB!! wonderful safes!!
1 down, 4 more to go!!
Im proud of This TEAM!
Salute you GIRLS AH!!

School is gg to start soon!!
Excited!! not that im looking forward to study the modules but atleast it keep me occupany.. haha!!
Btw my Mia got scratches ready.. sad sia.. i see if can polish..

End Note:
MY Hot Blind Boy!!

Blackspider

3:50 PM.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008.

Its 346am
Im still awake
Coz of the coffee
Coz im scared for tomorrow game

3:45 AM.

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Tomorrow is our 1st game against>>>> RP
Each of us do our part!!.. and we attack them like Cannon Ball!!
God please be in our side..
Excited& Nervous!!
Number 49 Kit
New pants> UNIHOC
New Jerseys> RED, WHITE, BLACK
New Body Pads> EXEL ( RED)
New Helmet> UNIHOC FORCE 33 ( Mia) ( RED & silver)
Monday
Went out with Cik ELLA- YANA to City Hall. To find My adizero her Cik US National Soccer Kit!! , but Cik Ella sad cant find her kit.. Don cry ah sloth, we find slowly ah.. as slow as a sloth ahhh!! u ask Kai to buy for ah ah from US.
i found my Adizero!! Rc!!! RED!! wooohhooo!!! Cik Ella buy the everlast shoe ahhh.. then we can JOGET TOGETHER ah!!! gemok also can join in..
Then Cik off for a game and i went back to get my gears for training..
Training
Monday was our last preparation for tomorrow game..
Excited to play.. but who wont be nervous...
Both team are wanting to kill each other...
Team NYP lets make a hard one for them!!!!
Let go NYP girls!!!
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I slack at home today didnt go out...
Watch dvd and surf net the whole day.. haha..
Mama asked to do something.. i only reply was// >> TODAY MY REST DAY..
I even don allow Ateeq go simpang bedok for dinner!! becoz i couldnt go
End up.. she didnt go.. coz she kesian and she love me.. haha!!!
Haha.. bastard.. i know..
Fadly came for raya-ing.. we wrestled.. the best part is he go conteng MaMa punye Magazine haha...
booo MaMa
Sumpah sia.. he so cute!!
Fir is so malu- malu kucing..
Fadhilah is so hyper active
Abg Din just bought Super 4!! man sia,,
Its is RED and sliver in color.. so matching with my helmet ahh..
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I should be sleeping right now.. but then itchy backside. i drank coffee during dinner
So now i couldnt- sleep..
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Reminder!!
Cik Ellayana!!
If u are sick or feel unwell or feel penat macam nak mampos dont play socceror rest at home.. don action hero...I don want u to have cardiac infarction in the middle of field like players i watched in Youtube.. i don want u to die like that ahh scarry... okey sloth??!!
Haha!! if u are asking why, i call her C-I- K.. ella... u ask her ah... she started with the C-I- K2 thingy.
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For Syg..
U stay Happy ( Happy Happy Tim Sum)
And don think so much alright
And U don have a Choice, to not to Study!!
U have TOO!! u are not gg to leave me.. hehe
Just hold your self denial for a while and keep smilling ahh..
If u need anything im here alright.. ( punching bag??)
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Double feeling..
Sometime is good..
Sometime is irritating..
Im still hanging..
End word
No Goalie, No Glory
Mia!!
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Blackspider

12:42 AM.

Sunday, October 05, 2008.

Training was FUN!!
Every training should be like this!! woohooo
Well Done!
And Happy Birthday to Syafizah!!
We sang bday song For like 3 times!! haha

i just received horrible news
i donno what has happen to human being nowdays?
Will u ever believe
BIG BROTHER( 24 age) BASHED A YOUNGER BROTHER ( 17 age ) WITH A HAMMER PUBLICLY!??
Will u??
It Happened Man!
what kinda of brother are u? U cant even control ur anger?
And for godness sake.. HE IS YOUR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD!!
U will regret for the rest of your life!
U have cross the line of LOVE, RESPECT AND SINCERITY
I have nothing to say to you.
i shut on you.

I don even realise it, but why did it change? WHY?
one second its there comfortably, another second its gone?
But where to????
Why does it affect me so much that i couldnt react?
Maybe because i was so comfortable?
Maybe because i pretend not to believe it cos i still wanna hold it.
I guess i just need to let it go..
Let it go...
Do i need to force myself..
Or seeing u settled and smilling help in letting it go..
I hope so.
but in another hand, im able to see the real picture.
I judged it wrongly
And now i knoe the whole picture
am i happy about it?
No im don think so
but i accept it.
End Word:
some parts are missing, because i let it go
but the thoughts are still in me. because its a memory and a treasure.
BlackSpider

12:33 AM.

Saturday, October 04, 2008.

Who am i ?
Where am i?
What do i want to be?
What do i want to achieve?
What is my objective in life?
What colour do i prefer?
Who do i want to be with later?
Who do i want to be now?
What is my passion?
Who do i trust?
When is the time?
What has happen to the world?
What should i do?
Why do i feel this way?
So many thing inside me that i couldnt explain or understand. But it come naturally. It come without force. It come without influence.. maybe slight influence.i donno if i should continue or just go with the flow. i need answer, i need to anchor the feeling and the attitude so for me to move on. Life is full of difficult choices but its only make it easy if u truly believe in something. but why do i feel this why about this?From the compact beliefs i hold, it lead me to the better life....But why am i hanging, without answer. Why?
i don bother to think and decide?
because it make me smile thinking of it No/yes?
because its just the natural feeling? No/Yes?
Or izit because i expose myself tooo much that i forgot wat are my beliefs no/yes?

i cant bare to disspoint you,
but what can i do to please you? please tell me wat can i do?
Throw me the answer so i can straighten my mind out. Throw me the answer so i can learn and act on it.

Blackspider

2:03 AM.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Now ramadan gone.. have to wait another one more year for the next ramadan :(
Takbir was nice!! always nice!! esp the Takbir Raya!!!

Buke was nice... I ATE RICE!! almost a month i never eat rice!!
Mama cook rendang.. wohooo.. but the daging was abit hard. Rebus longer mama!!!
i cant wait for tomorrow.. after salam and kiss nenek..im gg to attack the kitchen
Major dishes 1. Sambal Sotong 2. Ayam masak merah 3. Rendang 4. Lodeh 5. Sambal Goreng!
Im going to gain weight man... doesnt matter i still gg to eat!!!

I think tomorrow 1st house is gg to be nenek house.. wohho
coz we didnt send the Ketupat tonight.. coz its still boiling.. slow lah ketupat!!!
So tomorrow we need to rush there.. coz alot of hungry ghost wanna eat ketupat!!
2nd house will be Wak's house....
Tomorrow im gg to see my smart Fadly in Baju kurung!!! yeyeye.. and i think nenek will be in her kain batik.. every year like that... she dont care about dressing.. aslong as the food she cook finish... U rock nenek!!!

Yesterday training was fun fun fun.. nice to see alot of ppl came down for training.
Well Done girls!! I like the Jerseys!! to see the whole team wore its yesterday.. look like we are united, strong and powerful!! Im just waiting for my gears and HELMET!!! woooohooo..
Back Home with my cheena made sloth.. so long never see her Baby hair!! U still do have BABY HAIR!!!!

I have 8 more days to be mentally and physically prepared for POLITE!
( mentally can.. but physically i dont think so.. haha)

Serious Note:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF FROM LUAR TO DALAM!!
TO ALL MY FRIENDS, FOR ALL MY
BULLYING
CRITICISM,
VULGARITIES
SARCASMS
ETC...
END NOTE:
I HAVE A DATE WITH THE MOP SOON.... IM GG TO BRING HER AROUND THE hOUSE
THIS YEAR NO ONE PLAY THE SONG FROM S JIBENG> MUSAFIR DI HARI RAYA!
i LOVE THAT SONG.. I SHALL LOOK AT YOUTUBE!!
BlackSpider

12:42 AM.