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Dementor's Life.

Saturday, January 24, 2009.

W.I.L BS
From the day it happen
the feeling is there, its always there
It grew stronger
Anticipate, but never really analyse it
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Process of analysing.. Make me asked myself
Am i INSANE
or SERIOUSLY INSANE
" u should cut it off" " u should!!"
But you can't
coz whatever u have in ur heart it some thing PURE
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I love the way we are
but if i decide to be rationale & ego-less
its a DISASTER
At the end of the day,
Im just gg along with what i have previously
As long as i clearly define ME, as honest as i am
thats all matters.
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Its complicated, to many ppl
but its clear cutt for me,
i will not go beyond the " hook"
Its a disgrace to think abt " hook" with you.
~
This feeling is killing me?
Why?

End Note:
No one understand whats in the world,
They just accept, only accept..

BlackSpider

1:51 AM.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009.

hello Spideyz

I feel like 982359207057908432 days since i online.. haha!! comp addict..
Just got home, lepak session plus TEH TARIK with PS. ( not plaza sing.. its pondan sloth). Today is the most interesting day everr.. i will list down what happened!

Morning drama, my 43 and 42 darlings:" i boxing u ahh"... don disturb me ah, i beat u ahh" ( so cute lah they 2)
Massage session: 43 and 42 again ( bestfren)
Vulgar session: 37 "Fat *** U!" " why u look at me like that!" u holy *******"
GOODBYE, 43: " where Syamimi?! ask her to call me and visit me!" chantting my name! (very sad say byebye to her, i was stuck coz of casestudy) i bet 42 is lonely tonight!!
LUNCHY!: With my bestest nurse?! Parvin and Wani... ( nice catching up with themm, seriously! Thanks alot!) i miss ATEEQ!!
Blank Mind: i went home and sleep, i suppose to watch guys semis!!
I kissed a Girl and i like it (msg tone). LEPAK? haha!! with my dear sloth! with TEH TARIK!! woohooo!!
LICKED!: i aslo got licked my a dog at my face!! not funny sloth ( i become PARANOID)
SCREENING! 1! We were screenes by CID!.. please ehh we two legal already
CID CHASE: some guys running away from CID.. damn fast ahh!!
BOTTLE CURIOSITY: While talking, sudden a plastic bottle fall/thrown?! i saw ROCKER FLYING/ WALKING ( no legs)
NOISY CURIOSITY.: i heard noises/voices.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Ghost story session: (PO"N" or PO"C") hahaha.. wanna know.. ask me or sloth
FLYING CREATURE ALERT!: the sloth if mine, scared of flying creature.. she cover herself with her jacket! so funny!!
DON GRAB MY LEGSS!: Sending sloth home, something like gabbing my legs while i was walking!!
ROCKER ALERT AGAIN!: i saw it AGAIN!!!
SCREENING 2!! i was screened again
SCREENING 3!: : I was screened and Im clean" i almost kena screen again sia..
Last BUS. i missed the last bus... walked home.. so cooling!!
Now im HOME!!
If u think this is created composition.. then please ehh!! no ehh!! all these ah real event happened in one day!! ahhaa.. cool shit right!! haa damn funny ahh!!
THANKS SLOTH FOR THE LEPAK G**** session!! hahahah!! more lepak session please!!
Tomorrow im in afternoon i can afford to sleep abit late.. but i promise somebody, latest by 3am,
i miss alot of ppl!!
the kids, nenek,ngongs2, dysfunctional,NypFBteam,school & my MJ!
meet soon okeyy!!

W.I.L BS
theres no need to clear the line
Coz it has been recognise, from the way we communicate
Internal connection and feel, whats make u/me brave
Hold it there, im here
END NOTES!
Owl understands the nights
Blackspider

2:07 AM.

Sunday, January 18, 2009.

Hey spideyz

Did alot of thinking today,
At the end of the day, wat matters is the FACES ABOVE.

Smiles,
Happy moments,
Teamwork,
Random Vulgarities,
Childhood Games,
Team Spirit
Equals to

TEAM NYP FLOORBALL

TEAM NYP FLOORBALLMembers:
Pat, Francine,Kelly, Jut, Sally, Xinni, Hui An, Ravyna, Ad ( forwards)
Wileen, Joan, Puspa, Izzie, Jinat, Haida, Tiff,(def)
Sya, Clarisse (centers)
Fariza (gk)
Leng & Atiqa
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To sloth, thanks for supporting and coming down for our game.. u my bestest pondan sloth :)
To syg, thanks alot too. You know i Love u!!

W.I.L BS 1
The moment, hits us
Hit us in the face & heart
But does it kill or break us?
Never ever!
What we have achieved is way bigger than what we suffer now.

W.I.L BS 2
What ever u feel, define it
Before its too late.
True, its a treasure in me or maybe in you
but if its a most sincere one, why bother to hold on it.
Scared?
That is always the Question.
there is no right or wrong for this
this is about Judgmental and understanding
So Are u able to define it?
Are u able to answer it?

End Word:
Number 49 in the court please!!
Last warning number 49!!

Blackspider

1:18 AM.

Thursday, January 15, 2009.

I have a personal MAM

End note:
unseen imperfection makes u worries more
Blackspider

12:01 AM.

Sunday, January 11, 2009.

Hey Spideyzz

Has been busy with last elective project, then IVP games..
and NOW ATTACHMENT STARTS, stupid sia.. Free Labour somemoree!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

NYP Open House (Thursday)
i was assigned as BUS -IN Guide.. i thought my Job was to give directions to bus driver on which car park to go... On the day itself, then i got to know that BUS IN Guide.. are ppl taking the student from their sch bus and bring them around!! I ADMIT IM STUPID!! Lucky got Syg and the Rest patiently explain me what to do and the various routes. hahaha!! THANKS PPL!! Parvin, Soyah. Syg & Me got COMPASSVALE SCH! SMART SCH! So we go together ahh.. one big grp.. I SAW HAKIM!! after so long... HE BOTAK NOW!! Baru balik Haji eh bang??!!
Its was fun bt tiring ahh walk here and there...just for the record I LOVE DESIGN SCHOOL!! it is so cool!! if i were to withdraw from Nursing.. im gg DESIGN!! Dont care what mama say!!

Rushed for game after that, Sloth so kind wanna watch our games against NUS! She is our No. 1 fan!!
I told her the funny dreamt i had, and she was in the dreamt.. haha stupid dream.
Game with Nus was so intense.. the INTENSITY WLW!! to see my team mate running here fighting for ball, Hungry for goals was SUPERB.. Well Done girls.. Keep On Going alright.. next game against SP on Tues 830pm SPARTANS!

Elective HIM RUSH ( Friday)
Rushed to sch, to complete my project.. WAHH Its was so late minute ahh.. WE have to design and create a medical forms.. and we did about 18 forms from scratch!! .. From 945 am till 5pm i was in front of the computer doing forms and do 500 words report.Don't talk abt the STRESS LEVEL ahh. i keep MENGUCAP ahh.. Luckily Syg was there, i can de-stress abit.. she waited till i submit my Project.Thanks Syg PY was also there..another paranoid and stress girl... But at the end, WE MANAGE to finish up.. MASTER PIECE MAN

Power Pack ( saturday)
Training all the way man!! from 1pm till about 7pm. It was tiring but damn Syoik!! Both training was superb..my index finger abit swollen ah.. funny sia it went in the holes of the balls. hahaha.. On the way back, i tot i can sit from clementi all the way till tampines.. FAT HOPE AH!. i didnt got to sit untill BEDOK.. keep standing on one leg, then change leg. damn tired. Went Home, talked to mama..
Usual statement : "STOP PLAYING FLOORBALL AHH"
Usual Reply: " NEVER, BUT TRY TO REDUCE OKEY?"

Today ( sunday)
i have to decide what attachment shoe i need to buy for tomorrow attachment!! I DONNO WAT SHOE TO BUY!!
and attachment.. not ready for it.. i wanna go SCH!!!!

W.I.L BS
Life has to have a meaning
Show me the light
Show me the way
Show that you're listening
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
End Word:
Defining my feeling

BlackSpider

11:41 AM.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009.

Hey Spidey

1st part of the day.. was SUPER IRRITATING. I was so angry! 1st i went for practice, after doing it so many time.. then must find lecturer to sign the form.. so find high and low for lecturer. Found ready, waited for abt 20 mins. When about my turn. lecturer say " i cant signed, i have to go now"
WLW!!! Waited 2 hours for assessment.. got the chance ready..some idiotic person say cannot come back tomorrow.. FED UP!.. i don bother to argue.. i snatched my paper.. and i walked off with all vulgatities in my lips!!.. who wont be angry sia?? wakr early to go for practice nad retest.. in the end what i get" i have to go!! & and come back tomorrow" WLW
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Training was fun!! really good training .. thier shots are harder and on target!! woohhoo! Joan keep singing songs and with all the actions and dancing.. so like clown!! Funny JOAN!!
Tomorrow our 1st against NP.. please god be in our side!!
I have new JERSEY!! BLACK AND SILVER FONT!! WOOHHOO my fav colour!! thanks ah FARIZA!!

I seriously need to jump on my bed and sleep.. im damn tired..
okey have to go!

End word
please draw the gift u got today...

Blackspider

12:43 AM.

Monday, January 05, 2009.

Hey spideyzz

Where i stood
I dont know what i've done
Or if i like what i've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That i should go and this should end
Oh and i found my self listening

Cause i dont know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

See i thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And i think i am just as torn inside

Cause i dont know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i shouldCause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

And I wont be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one i've ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so i say to you, this is what i have to do.

Cause i dont know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more than i could
She who dares to stand where i stood
She who dares to stand where i stood.

Visited nenek and the kids (my anti- depressant).. I LOVE MY NENEK!! I LOVE THE KIDS
Fadly is soooo Handsome.. and we communicate! : golobigaohfpnfefypgisads ( his language ahh)

People pang sey me
MaMa & Agil ( they watched T3 in the living room, i myself haven watch it yet in cinema!)
NeNek ( she wasnt home when i reached)
Shane ( Watch T3 last saturday!)

i think i better sleep now!!
Tomorrow sch!!

End Word:
More then u need?

BlackSpider

2:27 AM.

Saturday, January 03, 2009.

Good-Bye
Twenty - 0 - Eight

Welcome
Twenty - 0 - NiNe

Year ZeRO EiGhT
The past

1st half 2008 was rough. “Kababom” happened. I was at my lowest point. Emotionally crushed until cannot crushed anymore. And I don’t want to be in that state ever-ever-ever again. Well I faced it with a stubbornness up front and flat emotion of my own. Cause too much emotions from the rest.. ahhh just say it was tooo much for me to sucked it in. The pain was extreme. But as months goes by theres improvement. I understand and accept. All the worst thoughts and moments escaped one by one. I didnt lose anything, infact i gain something from you.

2nd half 2008 was a blast. Well the“ kababom” incident taught me something that can never find in a book or any manuals . I was a changed person.I learnt not to see one thing in just one small narrow hole but in different perceptions. Beside that, got to know some awesome ppl which are now my friends. Haha!!
Dysfunctional Family and NgongNgongs, is always superb!! Love u all dudes!!
To frens around.. well I seek forgiveness, for my uncivilized dogs action to you all, disturbing, playing pranks on you ppl. But truthfully its damn fun, playing pranks on ppl and to see their ngongs reaction. Hahah!!

Year ZeRo NiNE
The Future

Its all your planning, not mine.
I will go thru it with love, sincerity and all with Your name.

Black is still the Colour
Audi is still the Car
Adidas is still the Brand
Ngong is still the Word
Sincerity is still the Way
Blackspider is still the HERO

W.I.L BS
Countless tear drops last year
No more tears this year, not for same reason atleast
No regrets from what had happened
I accept, even how painful it was
Countless of smiles drawn
Countless more please
To see it from them is a gift
A gift that I want every single day
Human love

Training later!!
1 till 4
End word:
" U dare to stand where i stood"
Somebody sleep soundly in the bus
BlackSpider

9:54 AM.